Thursday, December 8, 2011

Frustration

There will always be days that make you want to pull your hair out. Apparently it is my time to feel this way. I am unbelievably frustrated and ready to rip every hair out of my head, but I realize I wouldn't do well with a bald head in the winter. I can laugh and poke fun at my current situation because that is really my only option. Quitting is not on my agenda. Since I last posted, I've had some more changes regarding the line-up for my band. I finally feel like everything is solid and in place, but I'm lacking a drummer that doesn't have drama and actually wants to commit. It seems that many people have become band whores...moving from band to band...just for the sake of a quick jam session or two, with no intention of finding a band to settle down with. I've now gone through three drummers over the past few weeks. I've heard the same words from all of them and I've learned to cringe when I hear "I'm just looking to see what's out there." Ugh!

The other source of my frustration is on the financial side of things. It is so unfortunate that money can be the deciding factor as to whether a band survives or dies before having a chance. While I have excellent gear and talented musicians, I do not have a source of funds that allows me to work at the level I want. I am being held back by money. I find this sad and disgusting. I have sworn that when my band does have success, I will set aside some money to help fund a new band's project. I hate that money crushes dreams. I can't accept that people give up on their dreams because others don't see the value in helping such projects. I think that if we all encouraged each other to follow our dreams instead of careers that are guaranteed money makers, the world would be a better place. Happiness can't be bought, but our society makes it impossible to do anything without funds. I wonder if anyone has ever considered sponsoring a band and nurturing it from the very beginning? I realize the risk involved, but what a wonderful thing it would be to encourage a band and know that you assisted in the success of that group. Not only would you be assisting the dreams of the artists, but you'd be creating the path for new music to come to life. I think that this would be a wonderful use of money. I hope I get the opportunity to do that someday!

Aside from the lack of a permanent drummer & funds, the band sounds great. I've also been spending a great deal of time writing on my own and with the band. I love the collaboration among my bandmates. They surprise me quite often with their ideas. I'm really enjoying the process! I'd like to start recording soon, but this all depends on finding a drummer and selling my soul for a fair price...or winning the lottery!